My Musings for Today

This is (hopefully) going to be short and sweet.

I was thinking about some things that I have gone through over the course of my life. Things that happened years ago. Things that happened a couple months ago.

I was thinking mainly (of course) about the "biggest," most recent struggle I have had. I hate that it still takes up most of my thoughts. I hate I still haven't completely let it go, even though I want to and long to. Let's face it, I'm tired of spending another day with the same thing hanging over my head. It's ridiculous. It is also a waste of time and energy and it is a bad distraction.

So, I basically beat myself up some days because I feel like I am not making any progress. I feel like a turtle stampeding through peanut butter. But I realized, years ago, when something would happen, it would send me into a downward spiral. I would begin to question why I was even here. "God, why didn't you let me die? Why did you save me...just so I could live and go through hell all over again?" It was wrong, but it was the struggle I faced. Now, I no longer question God. I wonder why I am still thinking about or (sometimes) obsessing over something that happened months ago. But instead of being sad and down, I am still happy and hopeful. So I realize, I HAVE made progess. I HAVE grown. No, I'm not where I want to be, but at least I'm not where I was!!! And no one can get credit for that but GOD!

Adventures with Lisa

So I had a couple of adventures lately. I meant to blog about them earlier, but this week was very busy and I didn't have time to do it until now. 

Adventure #1: Last week Wednesday, I was leaving work and headed to the post office, which is my usual routine. I turned onto Murphy Mill and was just driving along. I had 50 million different things flying through my head that I was thinking about. One of those things was NOT how fast I was going. So, of course there was a police officer clocking people, watching for speeders. He pulled me over. It was ridiculously hot, and I was having to wait for awhile. Long story short, he told me he clocked me going 49 in a 35. Whoops! I don't ,drive that much over the speed limit, so when he told me that, I knew he was going to give me a ticket. He took my license and went back to his car. When he came back, he asked me if I have ever gotten a ticket before. I told him I had not. He told me he didn't think so, and that he didn't want to be the one to break my streak. He let me go with a written warning. He also thanked me for not arguing with him. (I never understand people who are brash enough to argue with an officer. Really? Are you TRYING to get yourself thrown in jail???) Needless to say, I was incredibly grateful. I knew it was the favor of God. And it was a real life example of how God is...that even when I sin and deserve punishment, He is gracious and merciful and does not give me what I deserve. I was REALLY happy because my sister and I had plans to go to Montgomery that Friday, and had I gotten a ticket, shopping would have not been an option for me! And shopping was so much fun! Found good sales and got a couple items I really wanted.

Adventure #2: On the way back from Montgomery, there were 5 or 6 dump trucks traveling down the highway. My sister was driving and in the process of passing the trucks. Gravel was flying out of them and showering the windshield, which I (obviously) did not like. With good reason. A larger (though still small) stone flew out from underneath the door (don't know what they technically call it) on the back of the truck and proceeded to crack my windshield. Not chip. Crack. Thankfully it wasn't a huge crack. It was just over 1/2 an inch. But still. I was NOT happy. I finally called up my insurance company and got hooked up with Safelite who came to the house today to repair the damage. It doesn't look as bad to me, though you can still see it, of course. Plus the guy cleaned the outside of my windows AND vacuumed my floorboards! That was awesome. And I didn't have to pay a cent. 

So those are my recent adventures. If life stays this "exciting," I think I have found a new name for my blog!