There was a time when I was so hungry for God. I longed to be in His presence, to see Him move in ways I had never seen. I remember being so hungry...and feeling like I had so much ground to cover. I wasn't sure I ever could cover it.
I even said it one night. "We think we think know God, but we don't." That was the realization I had reached. I knew ABOUT God, but I didn't really KNOW God. I would look around and think, "I've come so far!" Then I would look ahead and realize, "I still have a LONG way to go!"
And yet, approximately 13 years later, I realize how right on track I was. And I'm ashamed of how far I have fallen. How much more I could have accomplished! How much closer to God I could be!
I weep for the time I have wasted on meaningless things. But more so, I weep for the present. That I would grow more aware of Him. That the hunger I once had would return...and not just return, but increase. Life is difficult. It is hard to not just give up sometimes. That hunger is essential to hanging on. Because it is that hunger, that desire, that drives us deeper into His presence. And it is only in His presence that we find the strength to keep going and finish our course.
